rosetti's Journal

12:27am: where is my mind
This is a purely temporary addition to my life. but being split between two countries is just really strange for me. I have this crazed desire to know whats going on in both, and to try and continue living in both, even though i know that's not possible. I am home, but i think about being there. When I'm there, I miss home, but i don't have this urgent desire to hop on the next flight home. that says something, i know. i left so i wouldnt have to deal with the drama here, now that i'm back, i'm wishing i didn't come. some days. its just...i don't know how to relate to people sometimes. i feel like i give much more than they realize, and its starting to take its toll. because my heart is breaking and i'm just starting to deal with it now. even though it's been this way for well over a month now. its funny how a seemingly unimportant situation can make you re-evaluate your whole life. or atleast, your choices in it. These random occurrences i'm so obsessed with, or rather, i just notice and embrace...are becoming more common, and i'm starting to take it as a sign that i need to figure out what drives me.

a rant that got out of control...